FOUND?,,,,,,,,,,,,............................,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

FOUND?

sometimes i feel i'm so lost,
and i dearly pay my error's cost.
everytime i think i found you,
then you disappear even further into the blue.
why do i have to live my life this way,
why do you hold, the words you want to say?
my heart here sits still like bitten by frost
coz without you my existence is "LOST"

stupid .....................................

Remote Control or Controlling the Remote!



Strange as it might appear its but this story is not my crib’s own but I bet every one can relate to this! They say science & technology has changed everything and broadens man’s horizon and boy I couldn’t agree more. But the greatest invention is this 2alpabhet popularly known as “T.V”!
My little sibling courtesy our monstrous neighbor (a little 6th std gal) and her equally pervert friends (not meaning it literally but take it in lighter note) has brainwashed to watch the saas bahu sagas which she doesn’t want to miss so a time of 9.00pm to 10p.m which for me is like hellish hell! I don’t know what the architect of this soggy saas bahu drama derive by making women viewed as a literal bitch ,making them married so seasonally like changing season ,and yes I forgot the most importantly the re re re re re………………………………..re-incarnation of the various characters and obviously the mega generation leap .can we get sensibly knowledgeable realistic show for a change!
For my disgust towards these shows I have been often criticized and called an “anti- Indian or even sometimes “American”! I love watching knowledgable stuffs like the discovery natgeo or perhaps travel and living !
Obviously music channel are like daily fodder to me . I enjoy it to the core …………………..which I cant explain
I don’t meet many people with the same psychology and I end up searching for bakhras to tell them the stories! I have always found woman around me quite boring, very often I don’t get their discussions. so I have often be tagged as the reserved or imbecile by many woman! ( I have always had my share of loyal interesting and rational friends …………thank god for that though)
Their choice of movies, music, ethics, and attitude are so fake and boring to me. I sometimes think that I should appreciate and respect others choices……………..which I think I do but do they reciprocate!
The predictable dramas are so not me ………………………
Do Watching English Hollywood or European movies ,or sitcoms ,listening to European music ,reading a foreign author books makes u a lesser Indian ,less patriotic?...........................if that’s what ur judgments is I give a damn to it!
Patriotism goes beyond the songs u listen to, the movies u watch the books u read …………..its in ur values ur emotions it in ur soul its in ur breath its in ur blood
And I think the biggest thing in the world is human .its universal so I think its time to merge with the other world and stop calling us “anti Indian”!

reiterate.................................!

Reiterate!.................


Staring at the sunshine
Trying hard not to blink
Forget about blinking
Soon I m gonna go blind
Its have always so been there
But u always fails to take notice
O God I really don’t know why
I always end up giving it another try


Miles are getting longer
The closer I get to you
Looks like I m chasing time again
The truth gives me a lot of disdain
But still I can’t contradict or cease the feelings running in my veins
Worst in this pain I get a different kind of gain!

Now everything seems like a dream
I hope you come out make me sheen!

felone thats what love is!

Felone……………that’s what love is!




Oh GOD this is black magic
Or this is a spell, a real dark trick

It’s a blessing in disguise they say
No no! It’s a clear illusion at bay

I felt something warm coming out of my eyes
It’s as pure and pristine as the morning dew before the sunrise

But the more I run away its bound to grow more
I so wish it would evaporate this rheumy soon and evanescent go to its shore

I love and hate the same time that’s the irony
Unsychronization has given it the harmony!

I wanted to write a idyll
I wanted to tell it all
But suck the time is over
And my doom has already drowned!

again again again..................................

i aint so negative but i m not optimist either i like writing sad stuff




I fall and rise just to fall back again…
The more I fall, the taller I stand again…
Each day in darkness, I loose to gain…
All I love ends in pain…I
now walk to change my fate with fain…
So the night now falls on my disdain…
All I stand for will not be vain…
Friends become foes like a traitor becomes a thane…
I try to understand love but it is a difficult terrain…
What more can I do but feel the strain…
Would my words and legacy endure and sustain…
It is something that tires my brain…
Let me free; release me from this chain…
The torment I face for my sacrifice is inhumane…
My ambition tells me again and again…
One chance to immortality and never again…